Sometimes, talking just helps. I'm happy I have people I can turn to. Now... I know who my friends are.

Weird. Haven't really felt like myself lately.

This weekend is APOed out. I miss my family. I need something to ground me. Feels like I'm floating around. What's missing? Or, is it too much of something? Damn, this really sucks.

First time at E Street Alley! It was pretty fun. Damn, lately I've been looking forward to Thursday nights. They seem to be replacing Friday nights, which recently, have been reserved for business less party-like. We saw UFX perform. Half the team was drunk, but it was good none-the-less, since we were pretty buzzed too. We all got our groove on, and later in the evening, the birthday boy Marvin and his gang finally arrived. Good times, good times. Before we left, I somehow ended up in a dance battle with one of Marvin's friends. Damn, I think I got my ass handed to me on a plate. I had to represent pretty hard just to make up for lost ground! But in the end, it's all love. Cotixan's afterwards, and some late night TV. Overall, the evening was fantastic.

It's kinda weird, but lately, I've been kinda out of it. Seems I had trouble distinguishing who I was. Life kinda seemed empty, even though I knew I had lots to do, and plenty of obligations. I would come home from school and just kinda lie there. What is it with me lately? I really don't know. Maybe it's something I still need to figure out. In any case, I can't let it get the best of me, because I know in the near future, I have so much business to take care of. This weekend alone is already engulf within the plethora of APhiO events. Service project tomorrow morning, then Protect the Prez, then class from 2-5, then the pledge class fellowship, then the pledge retreat all weekend, followed by a review session for my HDP class, and then the APO GBM. Susmariosep!!! (Jesus, Mary and Joseph!) I have my work cut out for me. My stupid midterm got stupid postponed until stupid next Tuesday. It was suppose to be today, well technically, yesterday. I kinda wish it didn't. It would've forced me to study and at the same time, free me of the last obligation I have before finals AND leave me worry-free for the retreat this weekend. Oh well, things happen for a reason, I guess. I thought I was lost, and I guess in some cases, I still am, but for what matters most, I'm back. Welcome back me. =)

Whatever happens, happens for a reason. But it's kinda funny. Aren't I the reason some of these things happen? Maybe I should stop letting things happen to me. Maybe I should start happening to things....

"There's never enough time!!! That's why I've been taking these caffeine pills.... Oh my God, I still need to sing! And practice! I'm so excited! I'm so excited! I'm soo.... scared!!!" ~SbtB =)

Time is of the essence lately. Gosh darn golly I love the end of the quarter!!!

....this is how I feel. But I'll suppress those stupid feelings for now, bottle them up, and put them away. They're stupid anyways, right? I know they can only get me in trouble. I know I don't want anymore trouble in my life. Or do I. I don't know. Cuz it seems all I do is get into trouble. Well, whatevers. All I know is I can't bare to look anymore...

Consecutive nights of not feeling well. Sick. Just sick.

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Short blogs lately. Interesting. Let's continue the trend. Went roller skating for my first time ever Saturday. Was sick all day Sunday. Pledge auction was a success though. Was sick on Monday too. Class and Alpha I-Party last nite, while stoned. Complete boredom today. See, short and sweet, just like you! ;-)

Consecutive nights of inebriation. Beautiful. Just beautiful. (^_~)\\//

½ Century Club. I don't feel so bad, but we ran out of beer! Thanks to Anthony and our new friend Chris for enduring that with me. Thanks Joanne² for bailing us out of the crazy ass party. Thanks Cotixan for the yummy Carne Asade Fries! Thanks God for getting us through the night. Thanks bed for being so comfy. =)

"Some things never change. Some things do."

After a weekend in LA, last night was well needed. Spent the past few days doing hella APhiO stuff. Friday was the nite out with the guys. Saturday morning/afternoon was the Omegas BBQ/Interview Party. The rest of Sat was used to drive up to LA and eat at the Grand Lux Cafe in the Beverly center with APhiO heads from all over. Sunday early morning and until afternoon, we helped out at the Fila Cancer Challenge in UCLA, a run/walk supporting research that fights pancreatic cancer. It was really cool. Got lots of free stuff including a case of sugar free Red Bull which my kuya and I split. After the Fila thing, a lot of us ate at Roscoe's Chicken & Waffles. It was an interesting place, and the food is ok. Not something that I would crave a lot though. (unlike Udon and Shabu-Shabu!!!) The drive home sucked only because I was sleepy and tired as hell. Poor Brian was too. Heck, I think everyone was. We caught up to Lewis on the freeway who was kinda swerving, so we called him and made him follow us all the way home. It was nice to listen to good music and talk to my kuya. Out of town trips are fun. =) Got home and wanted to nap, but didn't get to. Hit up the APhiO GBM then the Pledge class GBM. Thanks Daniel for the Subway sandwich. TGIFs afterwards. I got kuya to go who bought me a drink. Thanks for that! Also, thanks to Vivian and Annie who couldn't finish theirs and passed it over to me too. Hehe. Had a session with my APO family line, Brian and Steph! Thanks guys for chillin' with me. I needed that so much after such a weekend. =) Slept til now. Gotta register. Spending the whole day with my mom, dad, and grandma tomorrow. I miss them a lot. Yay. I'm hoping this week goes well.

Crazy as hell guy's nite out yesterday. We were studying at Keith's!!! Hahaha. Interview party today. Didn't get enough sleep. Didn't get to go shopping with JS. Didn't get to go to family party with my parents. Headed for LA very shortly. Fila Cancer walk tomorrow. Since when did I have no time? I'm suppose to have loads of time! >.< At least I have a cool pirate's name: Dirty Roger Kidd! Kekeke.

Later alligators!

Old quote from an older blog:

"...then one day, it hits you. You realize what's really important. You realize the things in life you really miss. You realize that here and now should be enjoyed. It's a gift, that's why it's the present. You realize that you can't change the past, but that there's always room for change in the future. You realize reality."

Damn. Even I scare myself sometimes! Who IS this guy!?!? =D
Take it easy buddy!

Can't I just say "hello"?

Damn, seems like I haven't been on this thing forever. Maybe cuz I haven't! =P Been pretty busy lately, with school, classes, readings, midterms, partying, drinking, church, APO... It's pure madness. Can't believe I've had the energy and time lately to do all these things. I was sure after Vegas my life would be screwed but it's kinda odd, the firestorm sort of "bought" me some time, although it destroyed towns and the lives of others. Puts things into perspective, ya kno? *sigh*

Some highlights:

Vegas was awesome, got stuck for an extra, but it's not the worse place to be stuck in, ya kno!?

Thank you to all those who came, and to my wonderful family who funded the trip =)

Firestorm 2003 in San Diego wreaked chaos and havoc amongst the community, shutting down school, and destroying & disrupting people's lives. Everyone was affected.

We had a 2 day school week.

First time at PB Bar&Grill was too much fun!

Halloween was nice. Got to spend a nice Halloween dinner party at home with good friends and family. Partied the night away at a massive APhiO party!

Kuya Kai got me a hookah for my b-day! How can I ever say thank you properly?!? That's such an amazing gift!!! I'm blown away....

2 midterms this week, but I'll handle em ;-)

I'm really really REALLY looking forward to the rest of the year. There's a lot in store, and it looks very VERY promising. I'm excited. =)

Take care cool cats!