I was thinking to myself, and I thought day and night is a funny concept. Not funny haha, but funny interesting. During the day, we're up and about running around like rabbits, trying to get whatever it is we do done. Then at night, we break the monotony of daywork(or at least try to) by some means of gallavanting, enjoyment, pleasure, rest, relaxation, or sleep. Cycle-breakers. We're always breaking the cycle, starting anew. And the funny thing is, if we didn't do this, we'd go CRAZY. Our minds would be lost if sleep didn't "recharge" our body and brain. Ever go a night without sleep? If you haven't, the next day, you feel like a walking zombie. Things are distorted. You can't think right. So the even crazier thing is, the cycle starts all over again the very next day! Now the question is: "Do I want to break the cycle, or am I fine circling the loop?" Hmmmm...

Going to Vegas this weekend!!! Woohoo!!! Haven't been there in SOOOOOO long. I'm excited I finally get to go on a trip this summer! Yay!

Why does summer always seem to fly by? Damn. At least I don't feel like I've wasted my time. That's good right?!? All the responsibilities are starting to come back. Plus, summer session starts next week. Boo. At least it's my last MMW class and GE. This year, I'll be in charge of mananging rent and household responsibilities. SOPHOMORE YEAR, RELIVED!!! I'm even getting back two of my original roommates. A couple of cute girls, right ladies!? ;-) Well, it's time to get back on track of things. I know I can manage. So no worries, headstrong, imma handle this head first. *sniff sniff* I'm gonna miss the summer when it ends....

Now, its' time to go kick some bowling pin ass. Laters!

PERFECT beach weather today! Yay! Of course the weather is not the only thing I'm thinking is perfect right now. ^_^

Drunk for the third night in a row. Crazy three-peats!!! I SERIOUSLY have to take it easy with the alcohol! If it wasn't my friend's 21st birthday today, then it wouldn't have happend again. Why am I so easily persuaded? Especially when it comes to alcohol! I guess you can "call it what you wanna call it, I'm a fuckin' ALCOHOLIC!" :-P

Last night was crazy fun. Mark felt like being a baller so we picked up Hyponotic, Henessee, and Crown Royal. It was nice to feel all BourJois!!! Thanks bro for shelling out! Lots of things were done and said last night, but I don't regret a single moment! It's ok to let go and have fun. It's ok to let a feeling escape from it's hiding place. Alcohol does crazy things to people. It brings them down to their basic state, freeing the inhibitions, and releasing who they are when reduced to the simple state. Things you would normally be scared of doing become easier to do. Feelings you wouldn't normally shared are shared. If life has taught me one thing, it's that life will always be teaching me more. I'm happy. =) I expect a lot of good to follow.

Dang I'm drunk!!! I say the stupidest things when I'm drunk. I also say the smartest things when I'm drunk. It's a sad trade-off. :-p It's time to drink some more fire water. I'm thirsty! ^_^

"Mmmmmm, Chocolate."
-Homer Simpson

At home on a Saturday night. How tragic...

I think I had too much Hypnotic, because I was seriously hyponotized.

Yay! I love the beach! Just got back from boarding with Margie. We decided to go after signing our new lease. Besides, we didn't spend a lot of money on boards and wetsuits so they could just marinate in the garage! We're keeping up to our once a week pact of boarding. Although I'm ten times darker now, it doesnt matter. The waves were great today, and for a Thursday afternoon, there were a ridiculous amount of people. I wanna go again tomorrow! Well, my butt is all sandy now. It's time to do what I do when I'm feeling dirty... Take a shower! DUH. What were you thinking huh!?

Stupid Taste my Ice Cream song is stuck in my head. Boo. Hehehe, watever. But yeah, bowling was awesome! I said earlier I was gonna whoop some ass, and yup, I went and whooped some ass! So did my team. We got 3 outta 4 games. Take that! =P Hehehehe. JK. But yeah, bowled all dueces this week, a nice 638 series, consisting of a 216, 219, and a 203. I guess the heat of the summer sets my bowling on fire too. Haha, corny. Whoa, its nice out. I think I'll go for a run...

...thanks for everything. Toyota Supra! We'll go for a ride someday. =) But not in an $8,000 car. Nah uh, no way! Hehe.

I love drum n bass! Don't you?

It's hot. It's HELLA hot. Heat makes people do things. What is it about heat that gets people all worked up? Sometimes I think I'm a totally different person during different seasons, but it can't be, cuz I'll always be me. It's me against the world. Yup. Well actually, no. That can't be either. It's never just me alone. I have my family, my friends, my beliefs... Today, I realized it can't never be just about me. There are billions of other people in this world. It's about them too. Not just people, but creatures, animals, plants, EVERYTHING. It's about all that too! Sometimes, we get too focused on one thing that what's in our sight actually starts to get distorted. I have to remember to pull back and take a better look at the whole picture. I'm having trouble seeing things clearly. I've been too focused on single parts of the picture. Maybe this is my problem. Gonna have to see how all these details I've been focused on actually all comes together. Dang, it IS hot. I need to go cool down, so I can wipe the sweat around my eyes, and maybe see better...

I have the greatests FRIENDS in the world! To all my friends, thank you. =)

Waking up early is great. Didn't realize how much I've missed out on by sleeping too much. It feels good to actually eat the meal called "breakfast." Today I did more than take lola to dialysis. Actually got to wash my car, help out a bored brutha, help out a stranded roomie's car, and run a million errands. And fuck, the day's not over yet! Bowling league is in a few, and unlike last week, I intend to kick ass. Sure we won last time, but I didn't feel like any ass was kicked.

Looking forward to this weekend. Isn't this blogger suppose to be out gallavanting? It hasn't been lately. Sorry guys. I'll make sure lots more gallavanting is included. Previous shananagans include trips to Dave n Busters, basketball games, multiple trips to the gym, keeping up on summer movies, and spending lotsa time with the family. Doesn't sound that fun eh? Well, it IS to me! Screw what you think! Hehe, jk. =P I miss getting out. I've been too serious. Gotta have some fun, dammit! *socks himself in the arm* Ow, that hurt, but yeah, I deserved it. Hopefully, it knocked some sense into me. I've been making lotsa dollars lately, but no sense. Tsk tsk tsk Ronnel...

*DEEP BREATH*

It's a new day. I feel good. I feel really good. It's amazing how sleep can renew oneself. If I go out today and get hit by a double-decker bus or something, I'll die happy and content. =)

BIGGEST DAY OF THE COMIC CON TODAY!!! Hooray!!! I can't wait......

Bad boys for life! Woooosah!
Brutha Mark: You're my brutha for life! Don't EVER think I'm holding back. I have my quirks too, but I'll never hold back. Sorry about the misunderstanding.
To my friends: I'm sorry for shitty behavior. It'll never happen again. Promise! =)
Joannie: Truly sorry for blowing you off last night. Didn't mean to make it sound all serious. It was late and didn't want anything to be said that would later be regretted. I'm not mad at you and I hope you're not either. But if you are, I hope you forgive me. :-/

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

...sorry, just had to let that out. ^_^

To those whom it may concern:
I apologize for any offenses or things that may have been offending. No harm was meant. Misunderstanding, assumptions, and uncomfortabilities are things that are sure to screw up a perfectly good situation. As for next time this happens, I pray that there won't be a next time...

My feelings for you have not changed. If anything, they have grown & intensified.
I pray, I hope, I wish that it's not just me who feels this way.

Just show me.

Second day of the con was a bit better......

The phrase that is stuck in my mind right now is "Actions speak louder than words." Damn was I taught a hard lesson. You can say one thing then do another. What good is what you originally said then? Not a damn thing... Fuck. Sometimes, I just don't know what to think. I HATE restraining myself. I HATE having to act a certain way even though I want to act another. Now if you'll excuse me, I'm gonna go jump off a bridge now... HAH. Like I'll ever do that to myself. I know NOTHING is worth suicide. =) Life is just too great for death.

What's great about tomorrow is that we don't know what lies in store for us. We can predict, ponder, guess, and plan, but we can never be sure exactly what's gonna happen. I'll wait for tomorrow. I'll see what comes next. I'll be sure to die another day...

First day of Comic Con was bleh......

Volunteered for most of the day at Bandai. That was cool, handing out t-shirts and bags. Though, it left me tired and drained, with sore feet. S'all good though. A free badge is a free badge. =) During our free time, Joe and I gallavanted through the whole thing, and as always, I spent a lot of money. Bought Joanne and Annie little itty bitty Nemo mugs that are so cute! I gave Joanne the Dory one because she's such a Dory. Also got Jo a cookie monster t-shirt which I wish they had in my size because I would have loved to have one also. There wasn't anyone I really wanted to meet today. Tomorrow thought, Quentin Tarantino will be in the house. Yay! Then on Saturday, two beautiful ladies will be present. =D Well, I best get some rest. Another long day is at hand tomorrow. Dang, Friday already? I mean, YAY! It's Friday already!!! :-p

I have to say, I miss my computer. It's cool tho, I tend to do other things instead of spend all of my time in front of the comp screen, but yeah, I do miss it.

Tomorrow, technically today, until Sunday is the annual Comic Convention at the SD Convention Center! Yay! I attend every year and it's usually good fun. Plus, I always end up spending a shitload of money(whether intentional or not). I plan to meet Angelina Jolie, Halle Berry, and Quentin Tarantino. Admission this year will be free, since I'll be volunteering a few hrs a day for Bandai. Joe's brother works for them, so thus, we'll have exhibitor passes. Wow, this'll be the first year I don't pay to get in, nor go there hella early on the first day to be the first in line for the general public admission.

Today was sucky. Had to get up early to take my grandma to dialysis. That, I don't mind. Beats going to summer school. Today was sucky because of 1)the weather was gay. It rained around 11am then the sun came out. Thus, it became like Canadian weather, hot and muggy. Good thing my house has central AC. 2)I was hella tired and sore. I did squats during Monday's workout then went body boarding at blacks beach on Tuesday. The climb up and down to and from the beach didn't help my legs' cause. 3)I couldn't get a strike in bowling! Although my team won 3 of 4 games, it sucks when I can't make all ten pins fall down. So, I had to rely on my spare game. :-D Well, I guess today wasn't all that sucky.

This past Sunday's homily was awesome. One thing stuck with me. The priest said: "Live simply, so that you may simply live." This hits me hard. Sometimes I forget that the greatest pleasures in life are from the simplest. The more I think about it, the more I realize I'm a simple person who likes life's simplicities. I'm sure there was a point I thought I wanted more, but reflecting, everything I've done only makes me know even more that all I want and have always wanted are just the basics. Live simply huh. Damn, that's such a good idea.

I can't wait for what's in store next. Things are going great. I'm loving summer. I don't even feel as bad as I used to about starting summer school in a couple weeks. I'm glad I dropped first session and took some time off. A change of pace can be a good thing. It made me realize other aspects of my life than needed to be worked on. It refreshed my reasons to live. Lotsa things happened that could've brought me down, but I didn't let 'em! I'm happy....

"Still addict, I'm addicted to you."
Hmmm. Mebbe I am a chocoholic...

My friends are so drunk right now. For the second night in a row. It's hilarious. I would be too, if I didn't have responsibilities tomorrow morning. S'ok, the summer is long. For a good reason. =)

That's it. Stupid sport lane conditions. Now, there's no excuse for me to bowl shitty on good or even just decent lane conditions. It seriously all makes sense now. At sunset bowl tonight, I tore the pins up. It just seemed too easy. I don't care... tomorrow night, well technically tonight, whichever team is going against us is gonna get LIT UP. So what if they bitch about our high handicap or my high scores. They're going down in flames. I'm pissed at that stupid "sporty" lanes, so I'm taking it out on all the future pins and teams that get in my way. Look out...

This past holiday weekend was awesome. Definitely made me realize how much I miss home and my family. I had a blast with them. We went to Viejas, saw some fireworks, made some money, and ate at buffets! It was nice to spend time at home and equally as nice gallivanting with the family. It's a good feeling when you know you're loved.

Sooo, I decided to drop summer classes. Yup. Gonna be a lazy bum for a few weeks. Hehehe. Well. Not COMPLETELY lazy, but yeah, you get the idea! Besides, it'd be nice to take care of my lola at home and take her to her dialysis appointments. It sure beats reading for class and summer school.

As for today, it was nice. Things are (seemingly) finally coming together in my life. Uncertainty is a part of life, but it's nice to have something to look forward to, don't you think? =)

Just like the hairs on my head, you're growing on me.